I’ve been giving a lot of thought about my life these past few months; what makes me happy, what goals I’d like to accomplish, what I enjoy doing, what I like about myself and what I don’t, what I wanna be when I grow up. Turning 27, I’ve realized that making my own decisions is hard and becoming the person I’d liked to be isn’t an easy task. I’ve made a lot of wrong decisions along the way and am currently working on making more of the right ones.
Fear and indecisiveness can be such debilitating emotions. I’ve realized that I’ve let fear hold me back from accomplishing many things like taking the GRE in fear that I won’t score high enough, applying to grad school in fear that I won’t get into the program of my choice or that even worse, I’ll chose the wrong program, investing in one of my hobbies like photography in fear that I still won’t be that great, and putting myself out there more with my blog in fear that my thoughts just wouldn’t be intersting enough to read. Fear can really hold you back.
I think some greatest people in my life are those I’ve witnessed really putting themselves out there, working hard, and sometimes just by the skin of their teeth getting what they wanted. I truly admire them most and am working to be more courageous like them.
I’m putting this post out there, because I want something to hold me accountable!
My blog dreams…
I can’t share that much quite yet, but I have been working hard to try some new things on my blog! So far, I can attest that they really have paid off. Don’t mean to be so elusive, but I’m keeping it a surprise for now 🙂
One thing I can share, is that I entered myself into DIY design contest called Creating with the Stars on the site East Coast Creative. I would’ve never done this before in fear that my projects wouldn’t be good enough, but with the motivation of my friend over at Skillet.Sneakers. Style. I did! I decided to enter one of my very first DIY projects, the Built-in Ikea closets Brian and I so diligently worked on. It’s means so much more because it was built in our very first apartment together.
Remember this project?
Vote for me!
So if you have a moment, pop on over to East Coast Creative and vote for project #214 (built-in Ikea closets). All you have to do is click on the thumbnail to vote. Click on it a couple times if you don’t mind. The more clicks I get the closer I am to becoming a design star. The first round of the contest only lasts 3 more days so help a courageous sistah out!
As for my other goals I’ve been putting off. I’ve started looking at study programs for the GRE, re-looking at some grad school programs, and really being mindful of what I enjoy at my current job.
If you don’t mind, check in with me from time to time to see where I am in the process. I know it’ll help keep me motivated to accomplish big thing and help keep that little voice inside my head quiet for a while.